A word kept in silence, bonded by fear.
Too often spoken with hesitation and tears
A fragile thing, that’s stronger than steal
Leaving you wondering why, and if it is real
Scary, terrifying, confusing and wrong
Can’t find the answers, or where you belong
Sadness, confusion and anger surround
Is it a cruel joke, or something profound?
Trapped and vulnerable
Sick and sad
Looking at everyone, you’re friends, your family, your mom, your dad
You’re surrounded and helpless, thinking who will it be
Well I chose you, because I thought you could beat me
I enjoy a good challenge and knew you would fight
Not disappointed at you proving me right
Apologies are due cause I took you too soon
That game we were playing, became to real, ending in gloom
You sat there lost and found in the same
Not knowing what, or who to blame
Shedding some tears and laughing in vein
Wondering why you would deserve such pain
Well, you don’t, you didn’t, it just kind of happens
When I first showed up, I thought that we’d be friends
It’s a hard job being busy 24/7
Sending beautiful people like you up to heaven
It’s a full time job, that I wish wasn’t mine
Taking your loved ones before their time
Watching you grow, as I silently grow inside
Your strength endures, and breaks my pride
You fight me because you’re forced, without hesitation
You register the facts, and sudden realizations
Excepting the fact that I’m evil and hated
Gaining your strength would make me elated
This is the reason I take people like you
Not to be aggressive, abusive or cruel
My goal is to send these people above
To join forces with strength, and with love
To one day break me down to the disgust that I am
To one day rise and take my hand
Not above, no, send me below
Send me away as far as I could go
The strength combined will ultimately win
And one day I will be engulfed in my own sins
Your footprints in time and memories in frame
It appears you’ve beat me at my own game
Maybe I’m jealous of all that care
Of the love that surrounds you and that beautiful hair
Well I’ll take that too, and then you’ll be sad
But not as much as you will be mad
Mad that before you cared so much
Mad that I can take it, and now you can’t touch
Mad that I have control over your whole body
But not letting me make your mind all foggy
Your thinking clearer and being strong for others
Trying to convince it will be okay to your mother
You drift away, on my clock and time
I sit here thinking I won and your mine
As you head up above to the place you belong
I realize I have lost and that I was wrong
Wrong to take you and wrong to have tried
Wrong to make everyone around you cry
Wrong to have behaved in the way that I did
I should be locked up and thrown off the grid
I’m sorry to all and everyone I’ve affected
One day my destruction will be corrected
All I can say, is that this is the worst job in the world
But how can you be mad at me?? I’m just a word.
Cancer
By: Emily Harper